Hi. My name is Eric and I think too much. I sometimes think so much at night, I wake up in a truck stop as the sun is coming up and I don’t always remember where I’m at. Oh, and the headaches. When I crawl out of bed after a long night of thinking, I will wake up with a pounding headache. That doesn’t stop me though. I just start thinking again and ignore the consequences.
I know I’m not the only person who thinks too much. I’ve never really asked other drivers, but I imagine a good many of us spend our days pondering random or possibly complex exercises of intellect. What else do we have to do?
Few can argue that boredom and loneliness are among the biggest problems we face, as drivers, on a personal level. For many a driver, these are mitigated with eating and smoking. Those vices then escalate to health problems and a whole host of other issues. Remind me again why we love driving a truck??
When I’m not busy thinking, I’ve got my satellite radio tuned to other people who get paid to think. After a few hours of listening to the likes of Glenn Beck, Andrew Wilkow and Mark Levin, I begin to start thinking like they do. I think until I’m thunk (if drinking gets you drunk, thinking must get you thunk
So what’s the problem with being a thinker? The problem isn’t the thinking, it’s hangover you get from being thunk.
As a truck driver, we have countless hours to pass over the course of a day and week. Long runs with few drops are great for putting in the miles but they are also the most difficult, at least for me, to not get bored. For example, this week I hauled a load from the Midwest up to northern Vermont. I reloaded in eastern Connecticut for an unload in Sioux City, IA. Great people to work with on both ends and lots of relatively easy miles. This is fifty hours of nearly uninterrupted driving since I only had one reload for the week. A lot of things can go through a person’s head with nothing to distract them over the course of 3500 miles.
I’ve never been a person to feel stress or worry about much. I do tend to over-think and over-analyze though. Maybe that is just splitting hairs. Once a person is thunk, a simple thought can turn into a million different mental scenarios. This may be great for some. For others it may drive them to the point of Chicken Little.
As I started thinking about thinking, a thought came to me that I think I thought when I was thunk. Actually, it’s a quote:
Every evening I turn my worries over to God. He’s going to be up all night anyway. ~Mary C. Crowley
I had some really great reminders this week of why I am out here driving a truck. (If this is your first visit to my blog, thank you and please read some of the back story here.) I spent countless hours thinking and worrying about my personal life this week. I discussed my thoughts in great detail with God, sometimes getting a little emotional and second guessing my career decision.
I can’t say my colloquium with God produced instantaneous results. I do know without hesitation though, God’s got my back. He may not give me an immediate answer or even the one I’m looking for, but He has promised to help me through it. Even though I may still be worrisome, I know he’s got it covered.
That gets me thinking again. How do people that do not know God cope with their thinking problem? If you have spent much time in a large truck stop in a major city, you have seen some of the nasty things that can go down after dark. That is why I am so passionate about bringing Christ out to the big road.
If you are the friend or family member of a truck driver, this may be the first you’ve ever thought about thunk drivers. Spouses, children, girlfriends/boyfriends and friends of truck drivers are more important than they may even realize. Sometimes all it takes for a person to curb their thinking problem is to just have someone to talk to. I can only speak for myself, but random phone calls from friends mean more than they even realize. At the end the day especially, I want to talk. I have also found that most drivers want you to ask them where they are at. We are very proud of our ability to traverse the country and most want to share that. A simple “Hi, how are you” with a happy voice can go a long way.
It almost goes without saying, but first and foremost is prayer. We need God. Even when I know I am following His plan for me, I can still think until I’m thunk. Knowing He’s right there with me is sometimes the only answer I can find to some of my thunk ponderings.
Thanks for reading! Remember…keep the rubber down and the antennas pointed up.
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